That's what things have felt like quite often for me, and maybe for you too. A swarm of I'm not cut out for this. I'm not qualified for this. I'm not good enough for this in your head.
As a creative, an artist, my dreams for my life have always been out of the ordinary. So far away from the 9-5, college degree type of life. If you know me, you know that. But it's hard to have dreams that don't fit into society's mold. Really hard. It's also really awesome that it's 2017 and we are slowly but surely paving the way to jobs that are outside of that little template that the world so desperately wants us to follow.
I'm almost 20 and I'm still not exactly sure what my future looks like in terms of a career. What I do know is what I enjoy and what I'm good at. I keep those things active and alive by creating and sharing things on my blog, which I LOVE to do! But it's hard to be on any type of online platform without comparison showing up and leading to not feeling good enough. Good enough to do what you thought you were good at. Good enough to pursue your dream. Good enough to share your art or your words with the world. Comparison brings all that. At least for me it does.
Do not neglect the gift you have, which was given you by prophecy when the council of leaders laid their hands on you. Practice these things, immerse yourself in them. 1 Timothy 4:14-15
Having gifts that differ according to the grace given to us, let us use them: if prophecy, in proportion to our faith. Romans 12:6
So basically God's over there like YO you're not gonna have the same gifts as the next person so stop comparing. I gave you your talents.
I recently finished The Magnolia Story by Chip and Joanna Gaines and truly the entire book brought me to tears because God's hand is so present in their lives and the way their dreams and talents came together is so amazing. At one point, Joanna had no idea what she was going to do with her life- and she was even older than me! She was happy just working at her dad's auto-shop. Then she met Chip and everything started falling into place. Because what Joanna ended up doing is so similar to my interests and dreams, I took it as a sign that God can do the same thing for me too.
God put these dreams and interests and talents in me for a reason and they all play into my calling and my destiny. He did the same for you. I'm done doubting my talent because I don't doubt God. I'm Not Good Enough is Satan in one of his sickening disguises. Let's stop letting him having a say over whether we are good at what God gave us. If it's from God it is good and it's good enough. Your talent is good enough. Your work is good enough. Your art is good enough. You are good enough.
There's a way to be humble while still trusting your talent.
God gave me and you our dreams for a reason and He has a plan for them greater than we can imagine. I'm ready for it. Bring. It. On. I am going to start speaking my dreams out loud daily to God. I am going to begin praying over my life and the plan He has for me instead of just sitting still. I am not going to doubt my dreams or my talents because that's doubting God. I'm shutting the door on doubt and opening the door to my destiny.
I invite you to do the same with me.
Lord, use my hands for your glory.